|An observation about my alcohol consumption
||[May. 15th, 2014|07:19 pm]
Now that my depression is largely under control (currently, at least), I've been drinking a lot more. Only in the evenings after I finish my work for the day, of course.|
Because I ENJOY alcohol. I ENJOY being tipsy. So I'll drink three glasses of wine, or a couple brandy-and-sodas, or a couple bourbons and water.
I won't drink when I'm depressed or otherwise in a bad mood -- I figure that that way lies Bad Things. So I only drink when I'm reasonably content, or even happy.
And therefore, I drink much more now than I used to.
Just an interesting phenomenon.
I do the same thing. My dad is a functioning alcoholic-which I found out when I was in my late 20s and saw him open a new bottle of Tanqueray while I was making breakfast for both of us. So I only drink when I'm happy.
Sadly I've been on meds for the last 18 months that don't mix well with alcohol. I actually miss drinking. I miss having a glass of rose on a summer evening, I miss mixing up fancy drinks with friends, I miss happy hour with co-workers, and most of all I miss going to the gay strip bar with my gay friends and getting drunk and comparing notes on which dancers are the most attractive and then tipping the dancers.
Yeah, if my best choice was meds that interacted badly with alcohol, I'd definitely take them, but I'd be sad about it.
There's hope :) Craving goes away sometimes, and happy hour can include tonic (or seltzer) with a twist. An amazing number of bars will do a tasty non-alcoholic cocktail, as well (although these tend to be on the girly side). Source: been off alcohol for almost 4 years. Got the chance to drink again for a brief period mid-way and was surprised to realize I didn't want to anymore. A glass of something special purely for the taste - yes, but one tends to be enough.
I drink when I want to, which isn't all that often these days. My comparable strangeness is that unlike most people I've heard of, I do not overeat if I have problems. In fact, I am more likely to be unable to eat at all if I've got troubles. Hasn't happened in years ;)
"Now that my depression is largely under control"